art worlds within art worlds within art worlds. it can all seem rather unnerving once i start looking at where i fit in. best to make the studio my center of being. i create my own space by making the work. but sometimes no matter how insider-y i may seem/be to others, i still deep down feel like i am on the outside. on the outside looking in.. but this isnt a new feeling for me.. i have always, even as a kid, felt like i didnt fit. alcohol and drugs eased/masked that feeling for a long time.. now i just paint.. somedays i am completely comfortable and at ease with who i am. fleeting moments of confidence. however many days i am anxious… awkward.. no confidence. sometimes it takes a lot of effort to walk through the low self esteem..sometimes that feeling passes quickly. inexplicable. why i am talking about this? i have no idea.. guess i just wanted to share how it has taken me a long time to build this foundation of me as an artist in the studio right. this. minute. painting. there is room for you and me and all of us. art worlds within art worlds.